Ryan’s Bed By Tijan [Review]

Ryan's BedRELEASE DATE: January 22nd, 2018
New-Adult, Contemporary, Romance.

I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.

I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should’ve left…

I didn’t.
I didn’t jump out.
I didn’t get embarrassed.
I relaxed.
And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.

I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.

The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could’ve stayed forever, I would have.
He became my sanctuary.

Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.




MY REV (Copy)

“There are layers of pain inside me. Pain that I can’t put into words, and underneath it all is hell. It’s raw and bloody. Agony. Suffering. Torture.”

This book was an emotional roller coaster ride! Tijan’s books are either a hit or miss for me but I really wanted to give this book a chance because I’ve heard great things about it. This book was heart wrenchingly good. It hit me right in the feels and I was left emotionally drained. I wasn’t really into the story at the first half because it felt like a typical YA romance but damn the second half totally changed my mind. Ryan’s bed was completely different from Tijan’s other books.  It not only deals with loss, grief, acceptance, and healing but it also deals with  sensitive issues like suicide and depression. I think it’s the best book of Tijan so far and I really loved it.

“I felt her everywhere, Sitting next to me, Standing with me, Walking beside me.
She was me, but I wasn’t her anymore.”

Seventeen Year old Mackenzie is the only normal child in her extraordinary family. Her eleven year old little brother is a boy genius and her twin sister Willow is a popular student who excelled at everything. Mac always felt like an outsider in her family. One day, her whole world turns pretty much upside down when she finds her twin sister dead. Mac don’t know how to deal with her twin’s suicide. Then she meets Ryan Jenson who’ll soon become her safe haven. Ryan is the school’s star basketball player, when he finds Mackenzie on his bed he gets pretty surprised to find a girl on his bed but after learning her situation, he can understand what she’s going through. They build a emotional connection which soon becomes something more. Ryan wants to help with her grief but Mac thinks she’s totally broken and she’s beyond saving.

“I didn’t want to have memories in my head, making me feel things I couldn’t handle.”

Mackenzie and Ryan are pretty great characters! Mac was vulnerable yet strong character. Her inner turmoils and how she coped with her twin’s death really made me sad. She makes some stupid decisions which annoyed me a bit but I still enjoyed her character development and her journey to healing. Ryan was such a sweet and caring guy. He’s another flawed character that I really liked. I quite enjoyed the relationship between Mackenzie and Ryan, and how they found solace in each others arms. It’s really not a slow burn romance but it’s not an insta-romance either. Their relationship started off as friendship but soon it turns into love. I loved the chemistry between them. There was lots of angst and sorrow. As for the other characters, I also loved Mac’s little brother Robbie. He’s totally adorable and I really enjoyed the sibling relationship between him and Mac. I hated Mac’s parents at the beginning when they ignored her living daughter but it can be understandable that they’re also coping in their own way too.

In Ryan’s arms, I felt a little less crazy. I felt a little better. And I felt a little bit more whole. 

The story began like any other typical ya romance but slowly it became intense when things starts to unfold. Hence begins the journey to heart wrenching feels. The author did quite well in portraying the loss and grief  and how it effects the whole family in the story. The pacing was slow but I think it’s the perfect pace for this book. There is a tiny mystery in the plot which unveils at the end and it totally surprised me. I really didn’t saw that coming. The author’s writing style was addictive and captivating throughout. The whole story was told from Mac’s POV but I wish Ryan’s POV was also included in it.

“Somehow, some way, Ryan had become necessary to me. He shielded me, protected me. My head was above water with him. Without him I would sink. I would drown alone.”

Overall,  I loved it! It’s not your typical YA/NA contemporary romance, it’s a story about loss, grief, healing, depression, family, friendship, and love. This book delivers a great message and I would like to remind that it is a mature YA and some themes may not be comfortable for young readers.

Recommend it?
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I highly recommend this book to everyone who loves heart wrenching books! 

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33 thoughts on “Ryan’s Bed By Tijan [Review]

  1. booksandblends February 7, 2018 / 12:39 am

    Great review Raven! I’m so glad you loved it! This book tore me to shreds when I read it

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  2. Beware Of The Reader February 7, 2018 / 12:55 am

    I love your review! Once more we experienced the book in the same fashion as in the beginning I was all “ho crap!” and then I fell into it completely!

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 7, 2018 / 3:52 am

      Thank you, Sophie! At the beginning, I thought this book is going to be another miss for me but when the plot took an emotional turn, I was completely hooked. It was really quite an intense read till the end.


  3. Kelly G February 7, 2018 / 1:17 am

    I saw the cover for this book and was instantly intrigued – it’s really pretty! I love heart wrenching books, and ones that are full of emotion, so definitely checking this out. Great review!

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  4. Cate February 7, 2018 / 1:47 am

    So glad you enjoyed this! Only recently heard of this but I was vey interested in it. I previously read another of Tijan’s books and I liked this. Happy this wasn’t a miss for you.

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  5. Book Twins Reviews February 7, 2018 / 1:54 am

    OMG I loved this book so much. And I agree it’s not her usual style or a regular YA/NA romance, and the last 20% broke my heart!!

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      • Book Twins Reviews February 13, 2018 / 5:30 am

        Right? That last sentence shocked the hell out of me, but it also suddenly made so much sense. When I thought back, it broke my heart. 😳

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  6. lorraineambers February 7, 2018 / 2:04 am

    Oh wow, this book sound perfect for me. Although I’m still recovering from my last book. 😂

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  7. Crystal February 7, 2018 / 2:50 am

    Great review! I just seen this book for the first time on goodreads like an hour ago. I entered the giveaway. I would like to read this book! 🙂

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  8. Sophie @ Blame Chocolate February 8, 2018 / 3:13 am

    I haven’t read anything by Tijan so I can’t compare but this one sounds great! I’m glad the second half really made up for the first and that it deals with so many sensitive issues.
    Wonderful review, Raven 🙂 So happy you enjoyed this one!

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 9, 2018 / 2:34 am

      Thank you, Sophie! This book was a bit different from Tijan’s usual style and I highly recommend it if you’re into emotional reads.


  9. Claire aka Coffeeholic Bookworm February 8, 2018 / 6:51 pm

    So far, the only books I’ve read from Tijan are those from the Fallen Crest series which didn’t resonate well with me.. (Seven books have numbed me from all the drama caused by Sam, Logan and Mason) .. Now I’m seeing more positive reviews for Ryan’s Bed and after reading yours, I couldn’t help but feel left out.. I want to read this one soon, it sounds lovely! Thanks for this wonderful review Raven!

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 9, 2018 / 2:39 am

      This book was different from Tijan’s other books which focused mostly on romance. Ryan’s Bed is an all rounder and I’m glad that it dealt with many issues. I hope you enjoy it when you get to read it. Thank you! 🙂


  10. Aila @ One Way Or An Author February 8, 2018 / 10:08 pm

    Whoaa Raven, this book really sounds like it’s gonna wring my emotions and heart. I don’t usually read contemporaries that deal with loss (very rarely, and from good recs), but this one sounds like it was explored with empathy and depth. The romance also sounds very sweet and swoony! Awesome review!

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 9, 2018 / 2:45 am

      I don’t read books that deals with loss either but something about this intrigued me and I wanted to give it a shot. It was totally an emotional read and It nearly moved me to tears. The romance was definitely swoony! I hope you enjoy this book if you decide to give it a shot! Thank You! 🙂


  11. Dani @ Perspective of a Writer February 9, 2018 / 1:53 am

    It’s so gratifying when a book starts out very typical and then suddenly becomes a lot better after the beginning…. it’s like because you chose to keep reading it got so good! Haha ♥️ That’s what I like to think in any case!

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 12, 2018 / 2:04 am

      a haha I’m glad that I didn’t DNF’ed this book and keep continuing. It’s really a good feeling when a book turns from average to good to great.

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  12. Jen February 13, 2018 / 11:15 pm

    Ohhhh I love when things become tense when everything starts to unfold. This sounds like a book I would LOVE but I’m weird and usually can’t read a book with one of my kiddos names lol. If there’s ever a way for Kindle to change out names to another then I’m definitely picking this one up!! 🙂

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    • Raven @ Dreamy Addictions February 15, 2018 / 5:32 am

      Ryan’s bed is an emotional read. I think you’ll definitely love this book. Oh, that’s too bad! ahaha I don’t think it’s weird because you will feel a bit awkward reading this story with one of your kids names. I really wish there’s a way or maybe an app to change the names. 😀

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